It’s a sunny summer morning. Birds are chirping among the lush maple trees leaves waving in a breeze just outside of my living room window. Sitting at the desk against the window, I take a sip of tea, trying to type out some words on my computer. My husband has taken the kids out for a walk. The apartment is messy but quiet. Just behind my computer screen, a pot of basil is thriving. I love its smell.
Here you have it, a glimpse of my typical blog writing morning, which I thought you might like to know about, especially that pot of basil. 😉
In the book I’m currently reading and loving, a paragraph stood out and stuck with me.
“Humility is the beautiful condition of people who have learned to surrender their desires, their glory, and their power. Such people are in the process of becoming who they were meant to be in God’s kingdom by giving up the life of the self. “ (Willard, Dallas. Life Without Lack p. 153)
These words compose a different song from what’s popular and loud in the world.
You probably heard about this saying, “We are put on earth to become the best version of ourselves.”
Many bestselling books are teaching people philosophies and methods to “be better,” “achieve more and higher goals,” “live the life you always wanted.” As if you bought their books or products, you would get what it takes to climb up the ladder, reach a better place in life, and become the best version of yourself.
But, the question is, what version is that? Is it similar to that social media influencer, that writer, that actress, that slim entrepreneur mama who seems to do it all?
Who gets to define the best version of you and me?
I don’t know about you, but I know that I can’t define “the best” for myself. Chances are, you can’t either. Just think about the first guy you dated in high school or university, you probably thought, at some point, he was the best among all you knew, but now you are thankful that you didn’t end up marrying him.
We know mostly from what we’ve learned outside of ourselves, from our family, friends, prints, and the internet. The amount of information we receive these days is way too overloaded for our brains to process or understand. If we want to know who we were meant to be, we have to block out the noises from the world and hold a space to listen to the Creator of the universe who also created us.
I’ve listened. I’m still listening. It’s an ongoing practice because we are growing and changing every day. We are on the journey of becoming.
I want to become who I was meant to be in God’s kingdom. The way to get there? Well, it’s the opposite of grasping for myself. It not only about what books I read, courses I took, the degrees I had, or the work I did. It’s about surrendering to God’s ways through humility and giving up what I desire.
Sounds hard? Yeah, I felt the same. However, Jesus taught the same thing.
“Jesus said to all of his followers, ‘If you truly desire to be my disciple, you must disown your life completely, embrace my ‘cross’ as your own, and surrender to my ways. For if you choose self-sacrifice, giving up your lives for my glory, you will embark on a discovery of more and more of true life. But if you choose to keep your lives for yourselves, you will lose what you try to keep. Even if you gained all the wealth and power of this world, everything it could offer you, yet lost your soul in the process, what good is that? So why then are you ashamed of being my disciple? Are you ashamed of the revelation-truth I give to you? ‘”(Luck 9:23-26 TPT)
I’m a writer and blogger who wants to be an author one day. I’m also a mom and wife with many other desires for my family. But what if I give up my desires to God, just simply write as a writer, and love as a mom? What if I never get to be a published author or get a house and other lovely things for my family? There will still be some words written, the life lived, stories told, and love given and received. That is what boils down to and matters the most, isn’t it?
Let me clarify something: there is nothing wrong with our dreams and desires. They are essential, good, and legit. They are part of who we are. But it’s one thing to reach our goals with humans effort for ourselves, and another thing to surrender our dreams to God, and trust Him to fulfill them for His glory as we simply focus on doing the next task given.
Dear reader, what kind of person do you want to become? What desires are you holding?
May I invite you to get on this journey with me, the journey of becoming who we were meant to be through surrendering it all?
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